It's been awhile!

So here I am , 3 weeks later, lol. But I am back. I have been doing very poorly and have not been wanting to share it with the world. Eating wise I mean. Just terrible. I am back in to the 160's now. Have I fallen off the wagon for good? Hoping to get back on but my mind seems to always think, well, eat this way today, then you can start over again tomorrow. Well tomorrow never seems to come. Then I stopped exercising for a few day and I honestly could not believe the difference it made. I got flabby. Seriously!! Just for a few days. And I am sure it wasn't just my imagination. I even had talked about it to my bf. Telling him how embarrassed I was that I was gaining the weight back, how I wanted to get back on track and how I could not seem to. He told me he could not tell the difference, but I need to do this for me and no one else. I am kinda doing it for him. So maybe if I think that I need to do it for me it Will make the difference. Lets hope I can get my mind around that. My WI in tomorrow. i am hoping to be back in the 150's. I will let you guys know!! Stay strong!

Damn you TOM!!

Okay, okay, so I had a bit of a gain this week. And I know its worse cause this is the first morning of my TOM, but it's still disappointing to see that gain on the scale. But I have to look at it this way. This happens to me every month. I should be used to it by now, and usually get right depressed when I see it, but am handling it kind of well today. And I can tell I am losing. My clothes fit better. My body is changing in good ways, my cellulite is slowly falling off my butt and thighs, my tummy is getting smaller and I hardly have to push through any fat anymore before I get to the hard part. I can tell the difference in my arms, and I think I might actually only have one chin now!!! And I even got a few nice butt comments from random creepy guys. Kinda gross, but helps the confidence factor for sure! Woo Hoo!! So screw the numbers on the scale this morning, I am celebrating a NSV! And that is good enough for me today!! Have a great Friday!!

March!

Ugh....March. The month of my birthday. I know that age is just a number, but seriously, why can't it go backwards?
Anyways. I have been feeling pretty good lately. Physically I mean. I am beginning to notice the change in my body. I honestly can not stop touching my tummy. It's getting smaller, and it amazes me. Wow, small things I tell ya! My eating has been pretty clean since I have started back on weight watchers. Which surprises me, cause things have not been going well for me personally and usually first thing I turn to is food. I am happy I have been able to control myself. I hope I can stick to this commitment.
I started tanning today. I know, I know, skin cancer, premature aging, and all that great stuff. But I love it. It makes me in a spring kind of mood. And I am in major need of a pick me up. I went in s stand up bed for the first time. Very very cool!! I am now a stand up tanner.
Well, that's all for today. Have a great Monday!